Ending of Summer - Beginning of School

Well, the end of summer is now here. Today was the last day of summer vacation - On Monday, school will start again. But, this time not just for Bayker, but for myself as well. I decided about two or three weeks ago that I was going to go back to school. I had thought about it years ago, again last year, a few months ago, but really didn't think I would be going back. Well, now I am.

Bayker met his new teacher yesterday, Mrs. Miller. He wasn't really excited about going to school this year until he got back to school and met her. I believe he can't wait now.

Jaxon will be starting full time at daycare on Monday. I hope he adjusts well. I'm sure he will.

Stephen is working different nights during the week. It's a crazy schedule, but it is getting better. He has some mornings off to get some other things done.

Well, to everyone who is starting something new - May God Bless You in What You are Doing!

The New and The Old

Well, out with the old and in with the new.....that's what they say at least. I have been thinking about the past a lot lately, and I have been thinking about the future. But, I realized I forgot to think about the Now. You know. . . this very moment. . . the seconds, minutes, and hours we are now in. I was at my therapist yesterday and was looking around her office as I was talking about things. I noticed some marble spheres on one of the tables. We started talking about them. They were cold and heavy, but she said it is something used to help people get grounded. Grounded - I thought about this word for a few minutes as she was detailing all of the steps to go through to get grounded. I thought to myself, "grounded - the here and now....that's something I need to think about." I think we try to look at the past and all of the things that have gone wrong. We look to the future to all of the wonderful things we would like to achieve, but we forget to live in the Now! Well, I think I'm going to start living in the now. I can't wait until my children are grown for my house to look neat and tidy. I can't wait until later to start eating right or exercising. I have to live for the Now! I have to realize I have today and today is the most powerful time in my life for in today I can make changes to get to my future. In today, I can make changes to those things of my past. In today, I can look at what I have and with gratitude begin to say, "God, thank you for the now, for this moment in time that you have blessed me to make a difference today. To look to my future knowing that all things are controlled by You, and the now is where I should make a difference. I can't change what happened in the past, but I can change how I look at my Now and at my future."

Summer Sun

Well, the school year ended and summer is in full swing. I feel like I'm taking a back set in my developments of self. I am hoping to return to my therapist next week to begin really working through some of my real issues - my self worth. Why in moments of adversity that I listen to what the voices in my head tell me and not what I should? I hear things like, "you're not worth it.....no one cares.....you're not worth even talking to....you don't need to be around other people....you are gross, disgusting, and not worth even knowing...." Why do I listen to such things? Why?

Well, the boys are doing well. Bayker was diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder about a month ago now. Things in school this year are going to be different. I'm hoping to work with him really hard to make sure he stays ahead of the game.

Jaxon is doing better with Speech Therapy. I can understand what he is saying, but his speech still is hard to understand at times. There are days he has baby talk and other days he does very well.

Stephen is working and working and working....hoping some of the stress dies down.

That's us!

100 or more

Well, things have been going well around our house. I have been getting things cleaned and organized while Jaxon is in school. I have come to a new place in my life. I have learned so much about myself while going to my therapist, Angelique. I love my days I spend there talking about things and learning new things about myself. I have recently remember I am a very strong person. I praise God for the strength He has given me to overcome things in my life. I still have many things to overcome, but, through God's help, I'll do it. He has helped me so much through therapy and other things that I'm loving my life now more than I have in a long time.

Bayker has had some bad days at school, but we are praying today will be better. Jaxon is doing better during school. Stephen is still praying.

100 cucumber plants are living in my kitchen...what was I thinking!

Slowing Down....watch out!

Well, the craziness is starting to slow down a little bit.....watch out - something might be coming around the corner.

Jaxon has been in daycare now for about 3 weeks. He is started to get use to it. I'm so glad. He came to me on Friday happy to see me but not crying. I'm so glad. He is started to sing little songs he has learned from school. It's so nice to see him learning and growing.

Bayker is doing better and better at school everyday. He has been getting smiley face everyday except for Friday and last Tuesday. What happened those days....I'm not sure. He has 10 out of 15 stickers on his behavior chart for the day. He is only required to get 7 to have a smiley face for the day! Praise God for this wonderful blessing.

Stephen is still contumplating several things going on with work. God will give us direction and peace.

I've been doing better. With the stress of Bayker doing better in school lightened and Jaxon at daycare, I've been able to get some things done around the house....although right now, it doesn't really look like much. As my Momma would say, "Every little bit helps!"

I'm praying for my family in Tennessee. My sister, Carliea, is doing better. She has lost a total of 54 pounds now. My sister, Chanda, is still having problems with her back and is unsure at this time if she will be able to continue to work. My niece, Rayvn, just lost her grandfather, Raymond Smelcer, to cancer last week. RIP. My sister, Connie, and niece, Sara, are dealing with a new baby. Pray for them. My new great nephew is sick....apparently....? My sister, Candy, is dealing with different things in her life right now...MIL...and nursing school. My mom is just taking things easy and worrying like she always does. She knows she can't do anything about it, but it still doesn't make her worry any less.

I haven't talked to my MIL in probably two weeks....I need to call her.

If you want to know any more, just stay tuned.

Exhaustion and relief

Well...today, I sang with the group, "Wisdom", at a little church in South Carolina. It was good, but so exhausting. I couldn't believe I was so tired from singing so much.

Bayker is doing so much better in school lately. Praise God for that. Jaxon is still trying to adjust to daycare. The good part is he is doing better a little everyday. . . the bad news is he is afraid to go to any childcare..even church. Stephen had to sit in the car with him this morning because he didn't want to stay in the nursery listening to Jaxon cry. Stephen is doing ok. He is just working and praying for God's will in our lives.

I hope all who read this are enjoying what God had given them and loving the life they have.

New beginnings....new freedom

New freedom...........I came home from dropping my oldest son at school and found Stephen looking through the phonebook for daycare centers. Stephen had brought up the subject about daycare for my youngest many times, but I had tried to avoid it. I thought, "Well, maybe a little later in the year." Well, Stephen had called several daycares. I told him there was one he might check. We had looked at it before when my oldest was 4. He called, and they had an opening. He said, "Well, let's just go visit." We, my youngest, Stephen, and I, got in the car and went to visit this daycare. We looked around and immediately my youngest took off to play with the other children. He didn't want to leave. We were talking to the staff, and Stephen asked when my youngest could start daycare. They said, "Well, he can stay now." Stephen said, "Ok." So, this past Monday, I had to say, "Good Bye" to my baby and say "Hello" to a preschooler. It was a hard step to take, but I believe it will be good for both of us. I might be able to keep my house clean now.

New Beginnings....My oldest child has been having issues at school. We have done everything that we could think of to help "guide" him. Well, I finally bit the bullet and took him to his pediatrician to be placed on medication. I have to say it is working well so far. He was having a horrible time with shouting out during class and with his handwriting. Yesterday, when I picked him up from school, his teacher came to the car and was telling me how amazed she was with the difference the day's events had taken place. She asked, "Can it work that fast?" It was truly amazing and wonderful to see all of those silly, little stickers on a piece of paper that a few days ago brought me so much greif, but, yesterday, it brought me so much joy! Praise God for what He is doing!

It's a Baby!

Well, my niece, Sara, is in labor and delivery right now giving birth to a baby boy, Jaylen Shawn. He is going to be something else. He is projected to weigh over 10 pounds! Oh, Boy!!! I will let you know more when I find out!!! Go Sara Go!!!

Update! He was born at 2:49pm. Weighing in at 8 lbs. 14 oz. 20 inches long!!!

Today

Ok....well, today, Jaxon and I are at home. Jaxon had speech therapy with Ms. Tonya this morning. She was so impressed at how much Jaxon was talking now. He has really progressed since August. He wasn't talking two or three words then. And now, it's more than enough to understand his wants and needs.

Bayker is doing better in school, but he still has some bad days. The doctor said if he had ADD it was very mild. He told us to give him coffee. We were sending him to school with tea for lunch everyday. The first day he did was the best day at school he had ever had. The next morning he had croup and had to be put on steroids. This made him hyper, of course, so the next three days were not as good. Well, they were really bad. Hopefully, today was a better day.

Stephen is at work by himself today. He has to stay until they get done treating which is never early. He probably won't be home until after 7.

I am doing ok. I am starting to do a little better with my mood. God is started to help me see the things in me I need to love and not depend on others for their approval or praise. I have to be happy with who I am as a person. Once I do that, I believe I will be happy with everything else in my life and become more confident in who I am.

Hope you enjoy hearing about our everyday lives. Check back soon for more!

First Post

Hey! This is my first post on Blogspot. I am hoping to post more later.....right now, I'm trying to find a missionary for my son's church project.....

I hope to say more later.