I have to say that some summer have been harder than others. I know we can never predict the future and that our plans seem to change often. I was thinking about the summer and the ones from the past.
It was only two years ago when I ended up staying with Stephen's mom, Retha, the entire summer. She had been diagnosed with brain cancer, had surgery, started and ended treatment, and, then, went back home. It was a crazy summer filled with long drives to Knoxville for treatment days and long weekends with Stephen flying in to be able to see his family after a week at work.
Then, last summer, we celebrated. Stephen and I had been married for 10 years. There have been times in our marriage when things were not easy, but God brought us through them. We were able to have a small ceremony and reception to celebrate.
Now, this summer - started with a staycation. We had a blast being tourist in Myrtle Beach. We only wished it would have been able to last longer. We went to Tennessee in order to see my sister, Carliea, for her birthday. She had been diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma and had some swelling. We brought Rayvn back for a two week visit, but it was cut short by the call - Carliea was dying. We left and rushed to Tennessee. 6 1/2 hours, not 8, is how long it took us to get there in order to be with her for an hour and a half before he went to be with Jesus. We spent the next few days trying to process her death and plan the funeral. We spent the next week trying to celebrate the 4th of July. It didn't seem the same. Of course, how could it. Then, we came home.
Jaxon saw the audiologist again, and we were informed he would be fitted for hearing aids. We are trying to process how life is going to be after this transition. We are praying he will adjust and accept what he has to do. I'm praying I won't lose my mind worrying about whether he has decided to throw them away or destroy them. Lord, help us if he does.
School starts for the boys in a week and a half. I should start back on September 1st. Stephen, of course, is still working. Bless his heart. Life is trying to go back to what we call normal. Although, after this summer, I don't know if I will ever feel normal again. So many ups and downs over the last couple of years. Life keeps coming at us. I guess we have to trust in the Lord, and lean not on our own understanding. In all our ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct our paths.
