My Daddy

Over the last year, God has allowed some things in my life to come to light. Some hidden things were way down deep came to the surface. I have realized so much about myself. But, God has been working through all of it.

One thing I have always thought about was what it was like to have a Father. My father passed away when I was only 5 years old. Now that I have a child who has been that age, I realize how much I missed him. I realized how much I longed for the relationship that I missed. I think about the times I would have wanted to spend with him. I try to remember times that I did spend with him. I recently wrote down a little song, well, almost a poem, of what I remember. I thought about the things he missed and how my heart grieves for those lost moments. I wondered what it would have been to have him talk to me, to teach me new things, to correct me, to be my friend. Oh, how I missed that. Only until today did I realize I didn't miss out on a thing.

You may ask, "How can you say such a thing?" "Didn't you love your father?" Oh, I do more than you will ever know. But, God has been my father all along. He has corrected me, protected me, gave me guidance, been my provider, my counsel, and my friend. I have worked beside Him, prayed to Him, and cried with Him. He has taught me. When I fall, He picks me up. He doesn't judge me, but loves me through all of my mistakes. He shows me the ways to walk and where not to go. He tells me when I'm not walking with Him.

During all of these things, I realized something else. I didn't have my earthly father here on the day I was married. But, there is coming a day! I am a bride in the body of Christ. One day, God is going to escort me to a wonderful city that has been prepared for me - as Hebrew 11 says, "my homeland. I haven't missed out on anything. He has been my Abba Father all along. I just didn't realize it until today!